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Waiting To See You Daddy
Written by Daisy Estrada
Friday, 02 October 2009 05:06

The colors faded
Daddy, the day you left
I know you had cancer
but I didn't think you would leave
Just a horrible nightmare
I still can't believe
My heart fell to pieces the day we found out
When the doctor came in and filled our lives with doubt
It was the first time I saw my fearless daddy's eyes fill with fright
Who knew that the days that would come would no longer be bright
Why didn't you get better?
One of the many questions that torment my mind
If only I could I would rewind
To warn you to eat and live more healthy
So that now maybe you could still be
To tell you to go to the doctor regularly
So today I would not be so sad and angry
To spend more time with you
Although I had a boyfriend and remind you, Dad, that I still love you too
To tell you I'm so proud and lucky you're my father
So that I can see you blush and your warm smile
To tell you I'm sorry for all the times I misbehaved
So I wouldn't feel so guilty and feel my heart cave
To hug you and kiss you and thank you for everything
So you knew how much I appreciated you when you were there
To be a better daughter
Like you were such a wonderful father
But reality hits and I can't rewind
So instead I wait for the day I die to be reunited with you again
and see your face so kind

Copyright 2003 by Daisy Estrada. All rights reserved.

Wind Farm

We have a wind farm nearby our house. And by "nearby", I mean we can see it well on a clear day. I know it caused a lot of controversy before it went in, but I think it's beautiful. It looks like giant pinwheels.

Josh went on a 20 mile roundtrip bike ride a couple of weeks ago and snapped these photos of the windfarm. I really like them and today feels like a good day to post something that makes me smile. So, enjoy...

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4out of 5

Cup Fit: Feels true to size

Band Size: Feels too big

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I bought this bra because my favorite Goddess style wasn't being made anymore. This bra turned out to be better than my old ones. It's just as supportive but it does a better job separating. The straps are really comfortable. They are wider and very soft. This bra is also quite pretty. The only reason I didn't give it 5 stars is because I worry about the lace holding up long term. I am hand washing this bra. I typically throw them in the wash machine instead though. But I do not think the lace on this one would survive that. I've had it for a week and I still love it. I will probably buy more if I see that it continues to do such a great job.

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Remembering today...

Today marks 5 months since I lost my Dad. There's so much I want to say but it's still so painful for me.



This is one of my favorite pictures of him because I think this was a really happy day for him. This was taken the day we celebrated his last birthday. I like to think that heaven for him is like this. A beautiful day in the park where he can take a nap under a a tree.



I miss you Dad.

Just a little update

I feel like I've been neglecting to update my blog lately. It's that crazy time of the semester when all the projects are due at once and it's time to begin studying for finals. It's hard to believe that in less than 2 weeks I'll be graduating. Finally!

Thursday we are taking our daughter to see an orthopedic specialist to figure out why she broke her tibia twice and why it's been slow to heal both times. It's a little scary, but we also need to get to the bottom of this.

On a happier note, our cousins from "up north" visited us last weekend. It was SO good to see them.



Cousin Melanie meeting my niece for the 1st time.





Cousin Craig playing Don't Break the Ice with Abby.




Aunt Joan, Mom, Abby, Melanie and Craig

Hair & Craziness

I have an appointment in about 2 weeks to get my hair colored. I usually do it myself, but I wanted to treat myself. My graduation gift to me, I guess. So I know this isn't the best picture because it's a photo (taken with my phone) of a picture in a magazine. But this is what I want to do. My hair is shorter than hers, but I want to do the bangs and the same color.














PS: This is the sort of craziness that is my life:

Short video clip of Miss Abby...

Living room/dining room

Just wanted to share my living room/dining room.

This is from when we moved in:









And now:

Picture Day

Here's what Miss Abby wore for school pictures today:

A Poem

Gone to the Unseen

At last you have departed and gone to the Unseen.
What marvelous route did you take from this world?

Beating your wings and feathers,
you broke free from this cage.
Rising up to the sky
you attained the world of the soul.
You were a prized falcon trapped by an Old Woman.
Then you heard the drummer's call
and flew beyond space and time.

As a lovesick nightingale, you flew among the owls.
Then came the scent of the rosegarden
and you flew off to meet the Rose.

The wine of this fleeting world
caused your head to ache.
Finally you joined the tavern of Eternity.
Like an arrow, you sped from the bow
and went straight for the bull's eye of bliss.

This phantom world gave you false signs
But you turned from the illusion
and journeyed to the land of truth.

You are now the Sun -
what need have you for a crown?
You have vanished from this world -
what need have you to tie your robe?

I've heard that you can barely see your soul.
But why look at all? -
yours is now the Soul of Souls!

O heart, what a wonderful bird you are.
Seeking divine heights,
Flapping your wings,
you smashed the pointed spears of your enemy.

The flowers flee from Autumn, but not you -
You are the fearless rose
that grows amidst the freezing wind.

Pouring down like the rain of heaven
you fell upon the rooftop of this world.
Then you ran in every direction
and escaped through the drain spout . . .

Now the words are over
and the pain they bring is gone.
Now you have gone to rest
in the arms of the Beloved.

---Rumi

I really love this quote today:

"Let us rise up and be thankful, for if we didn't learn a lot today, at least we learned a little, and if we didn't learn a little, at least we didn't get sick, and if we got sick, at least we didn't die; so, let us all be thankful."--Buddha

So important to remember when it's easier to focus on the things stressing me out rather than reflect upon the things that happened during the day that I can be thankful for.